心の语。

2010-05-09T10:51:00.002+08:00

hi i am back (:
i wonder who still reads this.
ive lost my mojo to blog.
but prac is over, so i thought i should just drop a note over here.
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be right back.
real soon.

YOU.

2010-03-28T23:20:00.001+08:00

At this moment, there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men, that war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world. 6 billion souls. And sometimes, all you need is one.

Peyton Sawyer (One Tree Hill)
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and all i need is you.
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ohnooo.
i know i promised to blog but i didnt.
but time's really not on my side anymore.
it'd be a miracle if i even managed to survive through this week.
*cross fingers.
be back soon!

2010-03-17T22:03:00.003+08:00

a week since i last posted!
ive had an awesome week.
make that awesome x 19427248 week.
(((:
totally enjoying life despite my days being heavily scheduled, and falling way behind work.
so much to update, and ive already forgotten all that i wanted to say initially.
will write a proper post tomorrow!

hope you are all feeing awesome too (:

Just Believe.

2010-03-11T08:14:00.006+08:00

seen and experienced alot within a span of a couple of days.
there were the positive ones, and then there were the really negative ones.

it's amazing how a single event, being observed by different individuals, would yield different results and perspectives.
glaring differences.

while talking about areas of improvements, i believe that there is a limit to how one should nitpick and the usage of strong languages should be avoided whenever possible. encouragements and helpful suggestions will result in the will to improve. nitpicking, accusations and ridiculous remarks will result in setbacks and fears.
this is something i should always remember whether i am a teacher or not.
learn from the mistakes of others. hmm.

to say that i'm no longer affected would be lying.
i am.
i am terribly affected because it pierced right through my heart and scarred me.
i got afraid, i lost all confidence, and was real depressed.

for a brief moment,
i felt like i should be giving my career path some thoughts again.

but while there are devils, there will always be angels around as well.
and angels came in the form of ... them.
i am thankful for the trust they have placed in me, and for the positive feedbacks i've been given since Day 1.
they lifted my spirits, as well as my level of confidence.
it was necessary.

the chapter is still open.
and while i am at it, i'll just remind myself to thread carefully, and be mindful of not making the same mistakes.
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here's something more positive to offset the negativity up there.

you should have seen it on twitter/fb somehow,
that yesterday i finally witnessed my P2 boy, who is autistic, speaking to me in a complete sentence. not once! but twice! (:

to say that i was happy would be an understatement.
i was overjoyed. i was touched. and i sensed hope.

on day 1, i found out that he's mildly autistic, and i'd say... a lil of OCD.
but he's cute! with longggg lashes that i am real envious of.

during the first week, i tried walking past him and speaking to him.
i was ignored.

on the second week, i tried again.
this time round, i squatted next to him and spoke to him.
i got nods. well, at least, there were acknowledgements.

at the beginning of this week, i started teaching the class officially.
once again, i tried.
i interacted intentionally, i asked if he needed help with the copying.
to make sure that he understood what i was saying, i took his pencil, and asked again.
this time, i was awarded with mumblings of a few words.
i smiled (:

yesterday,
i tried my luck again.
during lesson, i was letting them copy down notes.
i saw that he was not copying anything. so i asked if he needed help again.
and that was when i heard the sweetest words, "you freeze (the projector), then lend me the book."
i wanted to cry, because it sounded absolutely melodious.
that was once.

class has ended, and there were only a couple of boys left in the classroom.
he was packing, well, the last to leave as usual.
so i asked questions again, and asked if he will be picked up by someone after school.
then i heard it again. "i am taking the schoolbus."
just 5 words! but it meant a whole lot to me.
and that, was the 2nd time.

you know what?
i think miracles do happen,
when you believe, hope, and have the determination to make it happen.
being patient really pays.

and because of this,
there is absolutely no need to rethink my career path as of now.
i want to teach.
certainly.

demoralising.

2010-03-09T21:10:00.003+08:00

utterly depressing day.
but it'll past.
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人善，有时候真的会被人欺。
我的沉默，不等于我的认同。
但人因为被压在五指山下，的确不得已。
很沮丧，但我要越战越勇。
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as usual,
im thankful for these people who cheers me up in their very own ways.

being unwell..

2010-03-07T13:00:00.003+08:00

has made me realised that it could be both a good or terrible thing.

terrible because,
i really wanted to bang my head against something when the pain reaches its peak.
then i start wondering to myself why we need to have teeth and gums. and if only i could saw my jaws away.
my jawline, neck were all swollen. it wasnt a very good sight.
everynight, i have to go through this 2hours ordeal of tossing&turning about in bed before i finally fall asleep due to fatigue. only to be woken up again by the sharp pain when i accidentally shut my jaw too tightly.
every word spoken was so slurred and took so much effort.
being the slow eater that i already am, instead of a 30mins meal, i now take an hour.
the tuitions i have to cancelled, the classes i had to miss, the money i have to spend on lousy doctor.
it was torturous mentally and physically.

good because,
i get to have porridge for all 3 meals. (i loveeee porridge.)
wonderful family and friends who have been absolute darlings.
mum made porridge, liangtehs, and whatever that she thinks will be good for me.
and i even got liangteh delivery from a very nice person.
i enjoyed feeling pampered. heh.
even though sometimes they make a big fuss... like "go sleep already!" at 9pm and even "can go to the hospital or something?" :p kidding. i've got cute friends.

there are always 2 sides to a coin, no?
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getting better now.
the antibiotics and all that liangtehs etc helped.
i can feel the swell subsiding.
but the pain still creeps in every few hours...
and my speech is still slurred ._.

just to let you know that i am still alive.

2010-03-03T22:37:00.002+08:00

been a long time since my last "proper" post.
so much has happened, yet it felt like nothing has really happened.
you'd have prolly seen most of the photos on facebook anyway.
school's alright.
the P2s brighten up my day, and im glad i have them for the last few lessons everyday (:
(there's this boy who turns around and smile at me all the time when i sit in the class. and one day, he just started prancing around me. very cute.)
the P5s are really quite adorable, but they irk me endlessly with the noise they make at times.
not to forget, the nice people to look at in school too (:
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so much to do,
and with the 3 tutees who are taking up 4days of my week,
im just glad that im at least coping.
beyond my own imagination, but i believe perseverance and passion will keep me going.
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all would be rather awesome now,
if not for my swollen gums.
the right of my cheek feels and look totally swollen.
i havent been eating, i swallow :/
unable to shut my jaws fully either because it's mad painful when i do so.
it's been 2 days!
the 2 periods spent in my P5class today felt like eternity. my speech was so slurred, it took so much effort from me just to speak loudly and clearly.
plans for pulling out that wisdom tooth is in order.
i was made to gulp down 2 bottles of liangteh today. but it doesnt really seem to be helping much.
and im so whiney today. but really painful whattt :p
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but issssssokay!
i'll survive somehow (:
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k bed time.
bye dears.

Love

2010-02-27T22:35:00.000+08:00

my mind should really stop interfering.

Week 1 Day 2

2010-02-23T21:54:00.003+08:00

i think ive found my motivation to wake up at ungodly hour everyday for school.
((((:
teehee.
(shishi! the boys are not the only cute ones!)
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school's so good, so far.
nothing much yet, so we are not feeling the full blast of practicum.
however, i heard that many of them are starting 2 weeks later or so!
why!
):
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the p2s are seriously cute.
(shishi! this should answer your question!)

老实讲

2010-02-21T23:08:00.001+08:00

你说你想飞翔所以我不阻挡
希望你能够在他的肩膀上
找到那爱的信仰

我承认有些话当时没老实讲
那么坏人就让我来当
我了解有些话现在没老实讲
明天我将失去了胆量
当你成为别人的新娘

我承认有些话当时若老实讲
现在就不会两败俱伤
其实爱你的心早已濒临疯狂
连我自己也无法抵抗
再也还原不了的时光

Week One, Day 0

2010-02-21T22:01:00.002+08:00

zomg.
it's tomorrow!
honestly, i am not feeling very very prepared.
but i'll be fine (:
10 weeks will past in a blink of the eye, just like how my 2 years in NIE past right?
i am going to miss the girls in NIE quite abit. who is going to borrow my 8 days and Iweekly every Monday from now on?!
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ive so much to update and say,
but i'll save those for another day.
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wish me luck for tomorrow!
may the little boys be cute. very cute.

无奈

2010-02-18T21:09:00.003+08:00

现在才发现自己的心真的太软了。
人家才说那么几句，我就无奈的答应。
每次都搞到自己吃亏。
唉。
算了。就当自己在积德咯。
不过，说真的，这些人的脸皮也未免太厚了吧。
%^@$%#@%

CNY

2010-02-17T23:59:00.002+08:00

hello dears (:
hope all your angpao collections have been good.
this must be one of my bestest cny ever.
really enjoyed myself.
possibly because we have a longer holiday this time round.
had alot of fun with the family and cousins the past few days.
we just keep eating, camwhoring, gambling.
my only grouse is that poor baby ambrose is currently down with HFMD.
no idea where he got it from either.
poor thing.
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today's the fourth day of CNY.
after meeting with the sup in the morning, (yuck. very stressed now.)
i met jo for early lunch.
we had pizza!
yums.

waited for jasper and made our way down to mingzhe's place for mahjong!
woohoo.
jo was clearly in luck today.
no matter how careful we were, she still won.
yes, 3 of us lost to her. lol.
the rabbits are in luck this year.
so jo kindly treated us to KOI after we left mingzhe's place!
((:
jasp's first time. and i think he liked it too. haha.
made our way around amk, and ended up in the arcade.
new bishibashi machine!
so much more fun than the old one.
it was good, venting.
awesome day (:
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short update.
will be back with more pictures.
they are all up on fb already anyway.
so just check away (:
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looking forward to tmr, friday and sunday.
must play my fill before teaching officially starts.

Happy Valentines & Gong Xi Fa Cai!

2010-02-13T10:33:00.003+08:00

posting an entry to cover up the previous one.
must cross over the new year with a happy entry right?
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had tuition on thursday noon again.
he totally loved that Ben10 stationery kit la.
it was his reward upon completion of 20stars.
and i was happy (:
(someone enlighten me about the 'coolness' of Ben10 please?)
i was glad i gave it to him after tuition because he couldnt stop rattling on about the name of each character found on the stationery kit and what they can do. haha. i was amused.
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prior to the tuition.
it was a mad rush.
change bedsheets, complete worksheets, finish work due the next day, wash and marinate chicken, chopchop, pluck taogeh (hate)....
such mad rush that i failed to save my work before i go out.
and guess what happened when i came back from bbq??
i found my laptop's switch being shut off. and my work gone.
$%!@#!%@#
was so mad and speechless. but no time to be mad. quickly type whatever i could still remember, slept at 4am that night.
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BBQ was for Jackson's 25th, Valentine's Day and CNY (:
i havent seen these people for quite awhile.
so it was definitely nice seeing all of them again.
nothing beats having friends around, yet, my heart felt a tiny bit heavy that night.
but it's ok (:
i had fun.
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yesterday was supposedly the "last" day of school for us in NIE.
yup.
last day, meaning we dont get to be students anymore.
no more lectures, no more tutorials, but still alot of work. heh.
took some pictures, and a video that i am hoping yucui dont put up on facebook or that's the end of my reputation. *covers face*
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i met ailing for breakfast in the morning.
we had the Deluxe from Macs.
i really appreciate having both hotcakes and scrambled eggs in my breakfast.
but isnt the serving a little huge?!
ok, make that VERY huge.
ailing and i ate till we were so bloated, we started going a little hysterical and laughed all the way to the class about how full we were.
oh, and i had 1.5L of liquid (icemilo + water + barley) during that 3hours in school.
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i am going to miss those in NIE.
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went out after school. SO CROWDED EVERYWHERE.
wanted to catch Tooth Fairy, but no more good seats and suitable timing.
so ended up watching Valentine's Day.
not so nice leh.
why did it feel like He's Not That Into You?
dinner at WildHoney after.
zomg.
crowded again.
waited, waited, waited.
but the wait was so worthwhile.
European B and tea.
*slurps.
pssst. thanks for the helium hearts :D though it knocked like 13857 people on my way home.
and yes yes, it takes a real man to hold 2 gay looking balloons on the streets. lol.
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alright,
got to go cut my fringe on my own now.
goodluck to me.
:/
cant wait for Reunion Dinner tonight with the cousins!!
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Happy Valentine's and Gong Xi Fa Cai dears.

Y for Yuck.

2010-02-10T23:43:00.003+08:00

lousy morning!
greatly traumatised, and couldnt believe my own "luck" when i saw a familiar face walking in my direction.
hid my face behind my hair, and quickly picked up the phone to pretend smsing.
still, no help.
he saw me.
he recognised me.
he walked towards me.
he tapped me on the shoulders. (shudders)
he said "hi, remember me?"
i wanted to say "no?" and frown.
but i didnt.
i chickened.
i said, i do.
we walked into the same cabin.
he took the seat beside me.
he made small talk.
he asked questions.
i gave short, polite replies.
i continued smsing.
i acted like i was busy.
i promptly "fell asleep" when there was a momentary silence.
phew.
i saved myself.
we reached jurong east.
he asked to send me to school.
i gave a firm no.
we parted ways.
i was disgusted.
i dont want to see him anymore.
please.
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and that was my adventurous morning.
ailing had a good laugh.
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at least the day in school was good.
(:
im going to miss them.

(:

2010-02-10T01:24:00.002+08:00

好多了，好多了。
(:

谢谢你哦。
P.S: 真的没有你说的那么宽容。如果能真的做到那样，就好了。不过，还是谢了啦。

莫。名。

2010-02-10T00:20:00.003+08:00

有人在问我干嘛又写了一则莫名其妙的blogpost.
嗯。没事啦。
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看来今晚又要失眠了。
这几天一直都这个样子，明明已在床上了，却又左翻翻，右翻翻。
所以，今天早上当然又是惨遭牙痛的折磨。
妈妈念啊念的。。。一直要我早睡。我已经早睡了啊！但又睡不着，有什么办法。
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日新月异，科技发达。
以上八个字，相信大家中学时期在写议论文的时候都已用到烂了吧？
也相信大家都知道科技虽然带来了方便，但也带来了困扰。
其一，人们开始以简讯沟通。
是，超方便的。随手打打几个字，了事。
可是也因为这样，人们忘了在打字的当儿，也要注意语气助词。
结果勒？误会连连。

也不完全是科技的错啦。
人类的冲动，人类的不理智，人类的个性，人类的保护意识，人类的敏感。。。等。
嗯，千错万错，都是人类的错。
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千错万错，好象也永远是我的错。
呵呵。
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明天，自然会更好。
别跟不愉快过不去，也别跟自己过不去。

当头棒喝

2010-02-09T23:15:00.002+08:00

他告诉我。。。
别以忿怒的心态去面对那些不如意的事情。
更不要钻牛角尖。

当头棒喝。
嗯。
知道了。
thankyou.
(:

明天，应该真的会更好。

coincidences.

2010-02-09T00:02:00.002+08:00

bumped into 4 different people from 4 different stages of my life while i was in town today.
it could be pure coincidences, or simply because the whole world was in town today. (skiving!)

人生的际遇，就如此。
纯属巧合。
但也要有了缘分，才能有巧合。

Teach.

2010-02-08T00:45:00.002+08:00

been psychoing a friend to join the teaching force after graduation for the past few days. and now he's signing up for it.
ok not really, considering that he asked about it first.
as much as i tried to be fair and tell him the whole truth about teaching, i think i was also a little biased. sometimes. hahaha.

but friend, good choice! you'll make a good teacher (((:
goodluck!

lol.

2010-02-07T23:40:00.001+08:00

couldnt copy and paste somehow.
so i snipped this instead.
HAHA.

Random #060210

2010-02-07T00:26:00.002+08:00

mixed feelings about the day.

it started off beautifully. tuition with the tutee is always pretty fun, as he talks about his life in school and at home. poor boy broke his wrist while playing badminton. i am really in awe with his passion for science. he made science interesting for me to teach. i was so motivated that i actually bought guide books for myself, so that i can read up and remember the correct terms i should be using with him.

went for laoda's house warming in the noon after lunch with old friend in town.
nice (:
im not looking forward to the pictures.
i must have been drunk, and i really cant remember what expressions i contorted my face into. all i remember was us laughing damn loudly at people's house. laoda's parents and relatives must hate us alot now. teachers make the most noise whenever they gather in a group. it's true.
laoda's got cute toilet. it's hidden within the wardrobe. reminded me of some Enid Blyton stories.
(:

dinnered at Dempsey Clay Oven with J.
burnt my tongue. and numbed it too because i couldnt take the spice.
rah.
but nice place la. and good food (:
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however (there's always a however)
the little bits of incidents and words were enough to send my brain into little knots.
but i'll just sleep on it.
no, i shall not let myself be too bothered.
tomorrow will definitely be a much better day (:
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人都是犯贱的。

Sea Monkey

2010-02-06T00:48:00.002+08:00

nice way to end the day, and the school week.
met up with the bestfriend and evan after school.
travelled to orchard with ailing who needed to get her friends' presents.
went to Gap before meeting those 2.
needed to change this dress that mummy got for me. i'm glad i changed it. hella expensive, and i dont want to waste her money. changing = i'll wear it more often. hehe. ok, got new dress for new year already (:
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walked around SO MUCH with jo and evan.
bryan joined us slightly later in the late afternoon as well.
so it was like the girlfriends, and boyfriends day.
haha.
anyway, i think jo and i tried on like, more than 10 pieces of clothes each today.
mad tiring ok.
i love buying, but i dont exactly love trying on clothes.
and we popped into at least 15 stores.
wobbly legs now.
had dinner at FishnCo at Paragon. yum.
oh and i bought my shoes from Topshop (: stamp of approval from both evan and jo. lol.
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nice day.
and bryan needs to stop being so protective of evan.
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on a totally unrelated note,
i have a fetish for scents. which explains why i have sooo many bottles of perfumes and lotions and whatnots at home.
and i have a bigger fetish for guys who bother to smell nice.
my theory is, if you are old enough to purchase your own deodorant/perfume, you should.
men should smell good, only icky school boys are allowed to be smelly.
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you smell good.

fatigue

2010-02-03T23:13:00.004+08:00

my energy level is officially maxed out.
i am mad exhausted.
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sleeping at almost 4am last night, waking up at 5.30am this morning, and surviving till 4.30pm in school is no joke.
it's been a long time since i last spoke to anyone on the phone for THIS long and till THIS late.
it's official.
i am growing old.
gone are the days where i can go on and on on the phone till the cows come home.
gone too, are the days where i can survive with barely 2hours of sleep.

dragged my souless body to town just now for Hachiko!
it could be the fatigue, or the pure fact that the movie was just damn good.
because i ended up being an embarrassment and couldnt stop sniffing and tearing.
such a beautiful story between man and their pet.
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i feel like going to bed now,
but there are still some loose ends to tie up here and there.
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mentally exhausted now.
i dont want to think.
thanks.
-
mad busy these days.
no time for alot of people,
no time for self.
yuck.

:D

2010-02-01T03:27:00.000+08:00

3 hours later, i am still laughing my head off.
those 2 blogs are keeping shan and i well entertained.
but i am glad i kept a blog all along.
(whether or not it will come back and haunt me years later)

Weekend #300110

2010-01-31T23:40:00.004+08:00

weekend's good.
spent yesterday morning tutoring.
another talkative one ._."
and i was stumped when he asked "how do spiders breathe?"
hahahaha. can they stop teaching them such difficult things in primary school?!

spent noon cleaning up a little, met an old friend for lunch, came home and slacked around a little before meeting jovan at night for supper.
walked from upperthomson to bishan.
i think someone led us the longer way 有没有?!
loooong walk. but it was nice feeling the breeze in our hair. ok. my hair.
talked, talked, and talked somemore.
cant help it. it's our forte.
oh we went to check out the huge CNY carnival thingy at Bishan too.
um, disappointing. nothing much yet.
but we had fun watching the bidding thing. good laugh. jovan was terribly amused.
also overheard while looking at the kiddos bungee jumping ... this couple was behind us, and i think the girlfriend said she wanted to try... then we heard the boyfriend said damn loudly "wah later the skirt fly up can see everything" HAHA. we looked at each other and was trying damn hard not to burst out laughing. it's a typical male response. sigh.
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i am sooooo glad i do not have school tomorrow!
:D
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isnt it nice when guys behave like proper gentlemen?
(:

蒲公英

2010-01-30T20:16:00.005+08:00

“知识的门由你开启
走向光明的路是你指引
莘莘学子幼苗长在大地里
师恩是春雨
每天用爱将智慧来灌溉
培育我至诚至永胸怀
教导我坚强，鼓励从不间断
开创美好明天
我们是高飞的蒲公英
你的叮咛祝福是和风
陪伴我自信翱翔
不怕迷失方向
飞翔阳光绚丽的远方”

do any of you actually remember this song?
i heard it on the radio today.
and it sparked off lots of memories of my days in Peichun.
we used to sing this alot last time during Music lesson.
and of course, the fang lao shi of 阳光列车。
heh.
i used to sing it without really understanding the lyrics.
but now i do.. (:

i am very tickled by the people who set up the group "Mr Chye FTW"
hahahha.
King Chye really deserves a facebook page of his own for his dedication to teaching, and his funny anecdotes.
isnt it nice that people still remember his words?
ive been following that group, and i chuckle to myself everytime i see someone posting their own memories of King Chye.
it seems like he's been using the same old stories for the past erm... 7 years or more.
:p

FYP

2010-01-29T22:27:00.002+08:00

have been doing um... researches and some calculations for the past 2 hours.
my brain is bursting with the load of information.
but in a positive way.
this sudden spark of inspiration is refreshing. i could really do with more of these.
it's been a long long long time...
(:
i feel...
a little more in charge of my life now.
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let's hope it doesnt start, and end here.

Peanut Cookies

2010-01-27T23:05:00.004+08:00

Hello boys and girls!
Aunty Jing will teach you how to make your own Peanut Cookies today! just in time for CNY (:

OK.
*clears throat*

first, you will need peanuts, of course.
lots of them.

then, you roast them!
it's ok to watch them as they pop and sizzle a little in the oven.

then, you take them out and grrrrrrrind them.
remember to cool them first! you dont want to scald yourself like how i did (:
do them in batches if you have to, so that the peanuts will be evenly ground.

so what do you do when the blender you were using breaks down on you just as you finish grinding the first batch of peanuts?! yes, fml.
but it's ok!
you search around the house for a bigger blender, and grind the rest of the peanuts (:
smile as you do it, you are not going to let a broken blender spoil your day.

once you have finish grinding those little nuts,
you start measuring the other ingredients and pour them into a hugeeee mixing bowl.

you pour in the flour....

then you pour in the sugar....
say "oops" when you realised you've put in a LITTLE too much sugar and move on.
a little more doesnt hurt.

you pour in the peanuts...

you put in the fingers...

umm, to mix them all around of course. (wash your hands thoroughly before this!)

at this stage, you'll also need to pour in cooking oil. you dont see cooking oil going in here because by then, my hands were full of gunk and trust me, you dont want to scare any prospective guinea pigs off with the image of half mixed cookie dough AND your fingers.

enjoy the process here because kneading dough can be soooooooo therapeutic.

(note to friends and family: no nail polish were harm in this process. they are intact on my nails.)

also, get someone else to take this photo for you because you dont want peanuts on your camera.

after you are done with the dough, you roll them up into little similar bite size balls and flatten them a little before brushing on some eggwash.

pop them into the oven, and watch them grow (:

*dabs tears.

when they shout out to you that they are done,

you take them out.

DO NOT attempt to pop anyone of them into your mouth at this stage.

you have been warned.

and FINALLY,

you lay them out nicely in a tupperware, awaiting the arrival of family and friends to lay their grubby little fingers on them.

uhhh, The Dark Side was a result of being too engrossed in tv.

yields about 90 in the end depending on how huge you roll them, and the number of family members at home the night you are baking. also depends on how many times a particular family member of yours reaches HIS fingers into the box.

so there!

go make some of your own today!

oh, just a side note,

drink lots of water when you are done! baking gives you headache and toothache.

vitagen is a good choice.

meanie

2010-01-25T22:19:00.002+08:00

i just got reminded once again of how someone mistook us for being a married couple on saturday.
and it's giving me a headache.
hahahaha.
thanks for making my day though.

it takes both hands to clap

2010-01-25T13:07:00.004+08:00

doesnt it just sucks to know (or feel) that people dont exactly treasure the friendships so painstakingly built up?
how people even just give up so easily is totally beyond me.
it makes me not want to try anymore, yet i still do because i am stupid/sentimental like that.
but it takes both hands to clap.
-
yesterday,
a friend said "dont have to wei le da jia then make yourself feel so xinku to accomodate da jia"
im not quite sure what he really meant by this.
prolly for the good of me.
but it went round and round my little brain last night. and i finally decided that i really cant quite agree with this.
1) i dont feel xinku.
2) even when i do, i feel happy eventually when everyone else is happy with the arrangement.
-
im reminded to cherish the bestfriend and the girlfriends abit more from now.
the ones who truly care, the ones who dont ever give up.
thankyou babes.
*smooch.
-
P.S/
no, caring from the heart does NOT count.
who the hell knows what you are thinking when you dont show/speak?

weekend

2010-01-24T23:51:00.003+08:00

spent the weekend catching up with the bestfriend, sister and the family.
bestfriend is finally back from Hongkong!!
and bought me lots of lovely stuff.
loving the RavingRabbit plush. haha.
had icecream+waffles/brownie at Prof Brawn.
cute waiter! whom jo thought was a Mat initially. tsk.
then i came home and saw Yuanru updating her twitter with a pic of the cutewaiter!
zomg.
we were at the same place, at the same seat, 3hours apart!
-
caught up with Jovan like.. finally too.
after much nagging from him about not meeting up blahblah.
wanted to bail out on him that day because i was having another bout of my headache, and he wasnt feeling too well either.
but im glad i went in the end la.
it was nice talking...
and i realised ive grown meaner. hehe.
somebody's very excited about practicum ._.
ok, looking forward to our next supper session! hope it works out (:
-
excited about March now (:
MARCH 13 to be exact (:
*waves at peezee and ellejaywhy
-
应该开心，
但却发现自己好像一直都开心不起来。
自闭了好久。没用。
只有越来越空虚。
想找回自己，可是。。。嗯。。。 “自己”是什么？是怎样的？
现在好想就那么好好地痛哭一场，然后遗忘所有。
没什么，只觉得。。。好像真的失去了。
是时候该看开点，放手了。
有时候什么也不管，最好。
况且，在乎那些不在乎的，很傻。

Random #180110

2010-01-18T23:28:00.002+08:00

i must be the only one who has not blogged about laoda's wedding on sat evening.
but hey, at least i uploaded the photos on facebook!
we all looked really good in our myriad of colours tt evening, but the bride won us hands down (:
i'll um, do it soon.
*sweeps the rest of the backlogged entries under the imaginery carpet*
-
im not getting enough rest,
with all that waking up in the middle of the nights.
yups.
it's been this way for the past week.
just last night, i went to bed at 1am, after aiming to sleep by 1230am.
then i finally couldnt take the pain (i have a super high threshold for pain) and dragged my body out of bed at 3.30am, very reluctantly.
went online for awhile. fed my fishes. waited for the painkiller to work it's magic. and went back to bed.
still, i didnt fall into any deep sleep.
woke up at 6.30am in the end.
and went swimming with peezee and bea.
heroic anot?
i was surprised i didnt drown.
-
shall go to bed in another 30mins or so.
ive a long day tmr.
still contemplating if i should bring my laptop along.

week1

2010-01-16T00:13:00.002+08:00

got through first week of school unscathed.
5 more to go.
school's been pretty good so far. (other than the 4hrs of *coughs*boring*coughs* lecture that we get on tues, and the fact that i've to be up at 530 on two mornings)

been way too lazy to update at all.
pictures are all stuck in my phone and cam.
so proud of myself though, because i finally went swimming with peezee and bea on thursday morning. yes. MORNING. at like, 830am. (ok so i was late la.) someone refused to get dark you see, but we still got a little tanned anyway :D hi, more swimming please?

oh and i met up with jies bea and peezee this evening after my mani for dinner+movie+supper.
It's Complicated was really funny and horny. the audience were all so fun too. there was this guy sitting right behind us who kept laughing and snorting loudly.
jies brought monopoly deal card game out too. ended up playing that in MOS till 11. hehe. super fun :D

laoda's wedding tmr!
*sniffs.
yao xing fu!
((:

530.

2010-01-12T05:57:00.002+08:00

i crawled out of bed at 530.
yes. crawled.
3hours of sleep is not enough.
i got kept up awake by the pain.
of all nights... ._.
alright,
got to go prepare for my first day of the semester.
have a very good day everyone (:

Random #110110

2010-01-11T01:51:00.001+08:00

HAHAHA.

made my night.

blast from the past

2010-01-10T01:49:00.004+08:00

just had one of those odd nights.
it was... certainly a blast from the past.
hello old friend (:
what was initially a night of supper with the girlfriends (hello, soon please!) became a night of drinks when i recieved an unexpected call.
and what was initially a plan of seedy pubs (just kidding), turned into a night by the riverside with our own drinks because, you know, pubs are no good for catching up. we laughed about how dramatic we are, and if not for the amount of people there were sitting/strolling around on a saturday night, we could really have been something out of a scene in a soap opera.
it must have been the booze, because i did something rather uncharacteristic of me.
but it felt good in the end (:
cant stop hiccuping. heh.
not to forget that rum&raisin icecream i had with the bestfriend in the noon... err.. but i guess that wasnt potent at all :/
very tired now. back's aching.
really old.
-
哭过，也许真的就好了。
-
ok,
cant wait for school to start now (:

):

2010-01-09T02:06:00.002+08:00

this is crazy.
approximately 15mins after i finish blogging that happy entry,
my brain goes into this mad frenzy trying to figure out some stuff.
and there i go again, being a smart ass, analysing things with my amazing sixth sense.
soon,
i found myself tearing non stop.
wth.
and it's not even anywhere near the days when i should be PMS-ing.

help.

im feeling real awful.
and like i said, material gratification doesnt make me truly happy at times like these.

(:

2010-01-09T00:51:00.002+08:00

such a happy day! :D

1) our VS loots arrived!!
so fast. and totally loving it because everything i bought this time round is soooooo worth the money. very glad that everything fits too.
so now ive like... 5 undies, a very nice bra, 2 tops, one dress and a undies + camisole set.
:D
went over to rip our parcel apart just now.
the colours of my undies are making me super happy but it seems a little inappropriate to be discussing about the colours of my undies here.
aiyah. love everything!

2) my christmas present from jo arrived!
yes it got stuck in US for the longest time.
but you know whattttttt.
I LOVE IT LAH!!
dont cha wish your bestfriend was sweet like mine?!
show you what she got me okay :D
TADAH!!

pardon the bad pictures. snapped this with my phone because the cam's flat.

hehehe.

KATESPADE!!!

my very first katespade bag :D

um, pardon the shape too because it got stuck in US for so long, super flatten by the time it reached jo i think. LOL. i'll give it it's boxy shape back soon.

ANYWAY,

it's so pretty in real life ok!!

i came home and haolian-ed to my mum.

she's gonna steal it T.T

kept asking me to sell it to her etc.

very funny seeing how jealous she was.

hehe.

thankyou so much bestie (:

dont know what i've done to deserve this, but thankyou for making my day (:

feeling pretty good today too because as i was going home today, i walked up the steps and heard someone going "lao shi?"

i turned around and saw one of the kids from my practicum class last year.

only been 5 weeks, so it felt really good that i'm still being remembered (:

doesnt matter that i looked quite chui today.

you know,

all these goodies that i rcved today....

they are all just material gratifications.

and i know that within a day or two, these feelings will go away.

my heavy heart wouldnt.

a part of me still feels really rubbish.

i need to stop being so affected by everything.

2010-01-08T02:18:00.002+08:00

今天有人突然冒出了一句：“你很____。”
当下的我，被这突如其来的一句话给吓着了。
先是很羞。不知道该有怎样的反应。
可下一秒却又笑个不停。这个人，很显然的……还没有试过我的厉害。
*ahem.
拜托，以后别在电话中告诉我这类的话了。

(:

2010-01-07T22:29:00.002+08:00

lovely day (:
lazed around in the morning, preparing for the tuition, reading, watching tv, and browsing through katespade catalogue.
tuition was good (:
love the kid.
he's cheeky, and very funny. couldn't stop talking either. haha.
yet at the same time, tuition went well because he paid attention when he has to. and he responded well.
i am going to have to put in more effort when it comes to chinese, but it seems like i can go on to more challenging stuff when it comes to maths (:
looking forward to the next session, and setting more worksheets for him. ahem.
-
saw 54 zooming past when i was walking to the busstop,
so i decided to walk home instead of waiting for another.
err definitely not a short distance, but it was rather windy in the evening, so that seemed like a pretty good decision.
felt happy walking home, with random thoughts running through my head yet again.
and you tend to pay more attention to your surrounding when you are walking.
i think i'll do it every week, provided that it isnt raining.
-
came home and clicked on 2 items to be added to cart.
99.9% confirmed.
here's to bread&water till the next and subsequent payday.
no regrets though. super good deal :D

玩

2010-01-07T02:25:00.002+08:00

我想。。。
有时候没有updates不是我懒，不是我无话可说，更不是我对于某件事不在乎。
而是我真的不知道该怎么说，如何说，说什么。。。
说了之后，又有谁在乎，又有谁的眼睛会翻个360度。
-
最后一个星期了。
假期过的超充实。
这个星期。。。一样的，就一直玩、玩、玩！
woohoo.

星期一：和好姐妹们到其中一个人的家玩。
大吃大喝。
大玩大笑。
吃饱了玩，玩饱了又吃。

星期二：和两位很久（其实一个月而已啦）没见面的朋友去吃个饭，聊个天南地北，然后逛逛，并完成一项“任务”。呵呵。完成的作品真的还挺不赖哟！
傍晚又和好朋友加上几位新朋友一起去K歌！很乐（：
我真是一个友善的人！哈哈哈。
唱唱唱！唱到三更半夜才回到家。爽。

星期三：又是玩！
到了Jasper的家打麻将！我买了榴莲上去，我们在房间里吃榴莲，熏到~~~~~~。
麻将+榴莲=人身一大享受。
无论谁输谁赢，开心就好！

*开始想着接下了的4天要怎么玩*

Teach

2010-01-05T01:14:00.002+08:00

i guess i truly belong to the teaching force.

i'll be starting tuition with Jasper's little cousin this coming thursday.
despite having gave tuition to primary school kids, and having taught classes after classes before, i am still greatly excited just at the thought of it.
it is most likely due to the fact that he is only in P1, and all P1 kiddos are cute (:
bought textbooks today, so as to be sure that i am following the syllabus of the ministry. and also for me to prepare lessons each week. spent 45mins in the bookstore just now, until they announced that they are closing, browsing assessments after assessments, trying to determine which are the best ones for him.
having all these crazy ideas on how to teach each subject and topic.
it's time i put whatever i've been learning to good use.
i sympathise with the poor little P1 boy, so i'll TRY very hard not to make his life miserable. heh.

god knows why i am so excited.
but, ohwels, certainly feels good to teach again...
(:

wish me luck people.
i hope i dont scare the little one away on thursday.

it's unhealthy

2010-01-03T03:09:00.003+08:00

the radio needs to stop playing emo songs at night,
it's unhealthy.
-
bestfriend and i just shopped at VS again,
it's unhealthy.
-
i got forced to eat mangos by my mudder just now, and now my tooth hurts,
it's unhealthy.
-
i need to sleep earlier,
it's unhealthy.
-
i shouldnt be thinking so much,
it's unhealthy.

1st

2010-01-02T00:05:00.003+08:00

and so...
there goes the first day of the new year.
(:
i'd say it went well, despite the horrid runs i was having in the early afternoon. must have ate something bad.

after the first few couple of hours spent with the bestfriend and her boyfriend,
i headed home in a cab (should have walked home. friggin expensive!) and washed up.
snuggled in bed.
and started er... feeling very lonely for some reason.
but thankyou jo victor steve and C.
who made my night as i chuckled subconciously over the light conversations.
it was certainly nice catching up with victor, and C who just returned from his ocip.
continued the conversation this morning and throughout the day via smses.
just like old times... (:
how i've missed it.

spent the afternoon lazing around in bed,
and visiting the toilet occasionally when the need arises. sigh.
glad it stopped after the meds.
cleared up some stuff. and headed off for dinner with the parents.

mum treated us to Manhatten's.
and we ended the meal with Yumi yoghurt instead of icecream as per initial plan.
im hooked on these frozen yoghurts.
i wanted peaches on my yoghurt initially, but i changed my mind after seeing this little girl asked for the colourful pebbles (those rainbow cereals) on hers.
muahahaha.
so much more fun to eat.
(and also very childish ):)
made my day though.

hope all of your first day went well (:
enjoy what is left of our holidays.

二零一零

2010-01-01T17:00:00.002+08:00

二零一零年的第一天。
希望今年
“零”烦恼。
“零”压力。
政府给的“零”用钱越来越多。
((:
-
昨晚
和好朋友到了vivo参加倒数派对。
派对好不好玩不重要。
重要的是和我一起跨越新年的人 (:

对于2010年。。。

2009-12-31T14:36:00.002+08:00

一个新decade的开始。
虽然说要展望未来，
但却不想抱有太大的期望。
更不需要太多的drama。
顺顺利利，就好。

我要好好地毕业，好好地完成practicum, 好好地做人，好好地教书，好好地疼爱与珍惜身边的每一个人。

和往年一样，
努力地以爱面对生命的一切。

祝大家新年快乐。
may you find yourself new reasons to smile this new year (:

对于2009年。。。

2009-12-31T14:09:00.002+08:00

在十个小时以后，我们将要和2009年说拜拜了。
你的2009年过的如何？
是好？是坏？或是喜忧参半？
2009年对我而言，就像是一场梦。
在梦境里时，我恨不得时间过得快一点，恨不得快快从（噩）梦中醒过来。
而今天，像是终于从一场长长的梦里醒来，却又发现自己好像已经不太记得梦里所发生过得事。
记忆。。。稀稀落落的。
嗯，不好的，我们尽量把它给忘了。
好的，我们永远不忘了它。

还记得2008年结束之前，我说过。。。
我不期望2009年的到来，因为2008年的我真的很快乐。
事事都好顺利。
果然让我说中了。

当然，我的2009年并不完全是个噩梦。
发生了好多好多事。
不想再记起那些不好的。
但好的。。。我想把它们牢牢地记在心里。
很庆幸。因为我所爱的、在乎的人和事物，都还在。（嗯，算吧）

无论是老朋友，好朋友，或是新朋友。。。
打从心底的感谢你们。
谢谢你们总是在我最失落的时候扶我一把，在我最快乐的时候与我分享。
迈入2010年，共勉之。

Day 5 - FINALLY

2009-12-31T13:40:00.002+08:00

nothing much from Day5, except that we were going home!!!
:D
ok. show you 3 camwhore pics on the plane.

evan jo and jing!

im watching you
O.O

jasper steve and jing.
yes i was alternating between seats to take pictures.
courtesy of evan li. tsktsk.
-
and so,
that marked the end of our Phuket Trip, and the end of my series of posts.
gosh.
jo has got my utmost respect now for blogging 6 entries in a row yesterday night.
really dont know how she did it.
-
thankyou guys,
for the yummy memories together.
to jo, for being the one i can always rely on.
to jasper and tengyi, for not kicking me off the bed during those 4 nights.
to evan, justin and steve, for being the wonderful people that you guys are. and the very beautiful pictures that garnered so much compliments from my friends. to evan especially, because 2000 odd photos is plain crazy and terrorizing, yet at the same time, we are still glad you did because that's how memories are locked in place forever.
xiexie nimen!
(:

Day 4

2009-12-31T11:08:00.009+08:00

ok im back with Day 4!
*tired
-
ahem.
anyway, this was one of the longest day we had.
going from places... to places... and around Phuket Island.
im having very terrible memory,
but let me try to recall.
1) Karon View Point - took in very breathtaking view of Phuket, and it's 3 main beaches. Patong, Karon and Kata.
2) Phromptep (dont know the spelling) Cape
3) Wat Chalong
4) Lunch at some seaside place.
5) Big Buddha - super huge. and still in need of donations from the public.
6) Waterfall - at their national park
7) Patong! - got free agogo shows. errr, kena flashed by some women (or men). we were all so entertained though :D

we also wandered off to Karon Beach on our own early in the morning before the drive came and pick us up. i was in awe of the water once again, and the seemingly calm waves which comes crashing in before you can prepare yourself for it (:

some hiccups along the way, which involves the silly driver leaving us at the waterfall area and going off on his own. only to come back 3hours later when we kept calling him. tsk. i was food for the mosquitoes ): 7 bites on my right leg alone! and that was where jo and i took the ugliest photos ever.

alright,
enjoy the photos (:
and the very minimal captions
*guilty

let's start off with me and my favourite girl.
we were at the top of the Big Buddha place. WINDY!
and if ure wondering why she was in that odd scarf... silly woman wore some "revealing" dress, and was made to cover up by the people there. haha. thankgoodness the scarf aint too ugly.

at the cape place.
dont know why those 2 looked so happy.
i think it must be because of me.
*coughs.
really liked this photo though.

check out the waves at Karon Beach.
i dont know if justin edited this picture, but it was really THIS beautiful.

someone on a personal speedboat.
i was rather amused.

random photo at their national park area while waiting for the driver to come pick us up.
nice hor.

the waterfall!
ok la, not very very magnificent...
considering how much we had to climb...
i expected more.

the big buddha.
the sign reads " Put the eyes in December"

HAHA.
the chor lor person you see in the photo isnt me!
:/

god knows what i was trying to do. seriously.
and those two werent even aware of it. haha.

takglamness aplenty.
and this was one of the better ones.
really.
you dont really want to see the rest.

this one wasnt too bad either.

jo and her mopiko upper lips.

hahahaha.

she was having flu la.

gross. like mucus.

HAHAHAHAHA.

pretty or not!!!

having lunch at the seaside place.

jasper.
his shirt says he is gross.

and that was how the right of my face rot.

haha just kidding :D

such a sweet pictureeeee.

from Karon View Point.

you can see the 3 beaches from here.

Karon Beach.

(captions getting shorter. wth.)

dont know who took this emo pic of me.

but i like.

another pic with superb colours.

teewhy jasp jing justin.

cape place again.

HAHA.

i JUST had to put this up

and someone tried to kiss me again.

i am so kissable.

see.

errr told you my photos are not in chronological orders.

this was early in the morning at Karon Beach.

my hair looked super helmet here.

haha.

so ladylike.

a first.

nice (:

takglam.

*TSK.
why are we like that.

very happy photo.

i think i was laughing at the mopiko lips.

lol.

look like mtv not :D

dont think we posed for this.

evan and i at the top of the Big Buddha

the moment we finish taking this photo,

evan said "why we look so cute?!"

HAHA.

told you, it's me.

once again,

dont know why we all looked so happy.

haha.

US!

like "deng shan dui"

jo steve and i ((((:

not too complete.

head over to http://funnyumbrella.blogspot.com for more please.

hehe.

Day 3

2009-12-31T01:46:00.004+08:00

another day of waking up early!
we were promised Animal Show, Elephant Trekking, ATV and White Water Rafting.
so exciting right :D

the elephant show was really hilarious.
poor justin got "volunteered" to get a massage by the elephant named Rambo.
just that instead of being massaged ala thai massage style (lying on the front)
he was made to lie on his back.
the trainer stuck a banana up his berms and the elephant was having a great time trying to suck that banana out.
hilarious to the max.
poor justin was so traumatised. hahaha.

next up was ATV!
so fun riding it!
but since i was at the end of the line,
i was eating everyone's dust ._.

then came elephant trekking.
steve was the gentleman who let me and justin go on the ride before him
;D
smelly outputs of the elephants everywhere.
didnt exactly enjoyed this because i felt very cruel sitting atop of the elephant ._.

white water rafting was SUPER DUPER FUN!
i want to do it again soon!

ok,
pictures!

from jo's waterproof lomo cam.
very nice picture right!
:D
credits to jasp who took this for us from the other raft.

steve.

very "dam dam" after that.
anyway, yes, we were trying to show off our "manliness" to the guys who were acting like the women during the trip :p

check out our beautiful rafts.
so many Xiao Hongs!

ok i dont know why i posted this. haha.

rafting!

here comes the king.

spot the similarity...

btween this and the picture above.

hehehe.

ATV!

we didnt buy the print outs.

so evan took this "illegally"

T.T

on the way back.

once again,

proof of how amazing their cams are.

when will my cam be able to take something like this?!

i posted this because i thought our skin looked really nice here.

wth.

US!

(:
-

phew finally done with Day3!

i think i'll continue with Day4 tmr morning.

goodnight earthlings.

Day 2

2009-12-31T01:06:00.005+08:00

i figured that i am never going to finish at this rate im going...
so...
erm...
im just going to post up alot of pictures ok!
:/
anyway,
on Day 2,
we woke up really early in the morning, and waited for the bus to come pick us up to go snorkling!
omg damn excited!
we were going to 3 different islands, PhiPhi, Maya, and Khai.
the waters were mad clear. i'd say they sparkled too, but that would be a little exaggerating. heh. i got bitten so many times by fishes though ):
steve said they prolly thought my legs were bread. wth.
despite the bites, the scrapes on the legs left by the corals and stones, and the mega salty waters, i had fun nonetheless.
it was cool watching the fishes swim past your face, so close that i could have gobbled them up if i had kept my mouth open :D

however, i got burnt on this very day.
it was such a torture trying to shower that night.
my scalp was burning, so was my skin even though i didnt look too badly burnt.
praise the person who invented sunscreen :D

ok,
on to the pictures.
(not in any chronological order at all. heh)

this was some pirate cove that we stopped by for a little while.
check out the water!!

see what i meant?

the water sparkled! hehe.

we were reaching Maya Bay where we were allowed to swim for abit.

sooooooo nice.

steve and justin with our very adorable guide, Patty, on the speedboat.

our hunks *coughs* and the friendly angmoh we met on the speedboat.

at Maya Bay,

the focus of this picture is not on the 4 guys infront, but the 2 girls at the back.

evan was very nice,

he went back to the speedboat so that he could take this for us!

crazy hair on the speedboat.

speaking of it,

it was really darn cool.

my very first time on a speedboat!

super thrilled because i loveeeeee bumpy rides. damn fun.

the breeze in my hair was so so so good (:

HAHA.

didnt mean to scare you again.

tengyi jasper jing jo evan!

i liked this picture.

having fun in the water again.

medusas.

pardon our hair.

it's the wind.

another favourite picture.

the colour and everything made it looked really nice.

another.
happy people going on board the speedboat (:

while waiting for the bus to come pick us up

(see, told you the pics are not in order)

(:
briefing at the pier.

love the breezeeeee.

got molested T.T

the end for Day2.

HAHA.

once again,

http://funnyumbrella.blogspot.com for more.

Phuket Day 1

2009-12-31T00:22:00.002+08:00

we are a day away from the new year.
ive decided to emerge from my sloth state,
skip my cousin's wedding,
and ambrose's birthday,
and bodyworks,
and jingting's birthday,
and a whole lot of other stuff....
to blog about phuket.
like,
finally.
-
but because im so lazy to go download all the other photos from the guys,
im just going to post selective pictures.
(which are already quite alot.)
-
so,
here comes Day 1.
-
started the morning on the wrong side of the bed.
was ultra grumpy.
and poor ty had to bear the brunt of my grumpiness since he was the first to arrive.
heh.
shared a cab with jo jasp and ty to the airport.
we were going to PHUKET!
waited around for evan steve and justin.
and i think that was when i decided to take out my cam for some camwhoring before evan arrives.
*jeng jeng jeng jeng*
the moment i switched it on, i saw unfamiliar pictures on my cam.
arent those that were supposed to be in my cam's internal memory?!
does this mean...
yes. i did it again.
instead of my battery, i forgot to remove the memory card from my laptop the previous night after uploading some pictures.
felt very dejected thereafter about having no memory cards to take pictures with ):
(steve had a spare, so he very nicely lent it to me. BUT, muahahaha, it was a blessing in disguise, because for the very first time in all the trips i've been on, i didnt have to take pictures!!! i could see and feel with my eyes and soul!! and i had even better pictures!!)
if you've been trawling through my facebook,
you'd have been flooded by pictures after pictures of phuket by the 3(4) very wonderful photographers we had with us on the trip. such huge professional cams! i also paiseh to take mine out.
right,
enough of my stupidity.

i bumped into karen who was going to Bangkok that very day too.
*waves.
the queue for checking in was sooooooo long and slow.
we ended up rushing for time.
rushed for lunch, and took super quick and huge steps + ran all the way to the gate.
our gate was at the very end of the airport, so you can imagine how exhausted we were by the time we settled down in the plane.

see!

got celebrity behind steve and jasper :D

ok so um...

approx 2 hours later,

we were in Phuket!

we had chauffeur!

settled down at our little hotel.

clean and cosy. not too bad.

but i still miss Sacha @ BKK alot.

went off to look for tour agencies to help us book our tours for the next 3 days.

found another nice little hotel a few doors away from ours called My Friend House.

met a nice lady there named Rose who helped us booked all 3 of our tours!

Day 2 - Snorkling at 3 Islands.

Day 3 - Elephant Trekking, ATV, White Water Rafting

Day 4 - Random personal tour around Phuket.

jo and i put our amazing bargaining skills to good use over there.

saved alot!

see.

very serious.

*coughs.

wo men!

went off to look for food after that.

settled at cosy Elephant Cafe.

PAD THAI! :D

i have alot more to post about Day 2...

so i guess i'll just stop here for Day1.

for a more concised post,

please head over to http://funnyumbrella.blogspot.com

hehehehe.

beezee

2009-12-29T10:38:00.003+08:00

alot of backdated posts!!
):
but no time no timeeee.
i seem to be out every other day this december.
not complaining because i get to meet up with my friends and keep myself happy, but err, i need MORE time for some other friends and family and... myself.
-
spent post boxing day with my favourite girls who totally made my day.
mario kart was mad fun la.
but i figured it's prolly exciting because of them.
we cannot stop laughing at each other's lousyness.
6 popeye's mashed was crazy too. but i like (:
-
grandparents' birthday celebration at night.
nice homey feast (:
and im glad grandma liked her present (:
she cannot stop hugging me though. i sho scaredxzs.
teehee, just kidding. just taken by surprised.
and i was happy seeing both of them all smiley and happy that evening.
really nice seeing my dearest butts again.
hahaha we really need to go back to gramps' place more often.
-
spent yesterday watching Princess and the Frog with bestfriend and her boyfriend.
i really liked the movie.
felt like a little kid all over again.
someday, my prince will come and sweep me off my feet too, right?
(:
had some food at TeaCosy again.
it's turning into one of our favourite hangouts.
tapao-ed their cute cupcakes for shannon whom we were meeting later.
ktv-ed with shan jo and evan at night.
sing until sleepy.
but it was nice (:
i think i was happy.
shan and evan couldnt stop singing old songs.
like really really old songs. i think they have both found their match.
-
meeting the excolleagues later.
i think we are going singing again *gasps.
and as a result, im going to have to miss Avatar with the bestfriend and people.
BUT! i could be doing a good deed you know?! :D *winks.
-
ok pictures soon.
promise promise.
ahem :/
if not, you can always check facebook right?!

梦境

2009-12-27T13:06:00.003+08:00

梦境与现实，
突然分不清。

睡了又醒，
醒了又睡。
为的是想再一次回到梦境里。
梦境里是美好的。

现实。。。
何时才能和梦境里一样呢？

圣诞快乐

2009-12-25T23:59:00.003+08:00

平时期待已久的圣诞，就这样，过了。
忙忙碌碌了整整一个星期，就这样，在6个小时内，结束了。

和心爱的朋友与家人一起度过，是很温馨。
但为什么今年。。。总觉得有些不同。
朋友一离开，我心里竟莫名空虚了起来。
好像忙了好久、准备了好久、期待了好久，现在突然可以松懈下来。。。还真得有点不习惯。
不应该是这样的吧？
是我要求太多了吗？
觉得自己好像做的还不够。
但能力，毕竟有限。

不管怎样，还是很感谢他们的到访。
让家里多了一些佳节的气氛。
佳节，真的是要与心爱的人一起度过的。
尤其是这些曾经与我“共患难”的朋友。
谢谢你们的包容与爱护。。。真的。
-
你呢。。。？

angel from above

2009-12-24T23:48:00.003+08:00

"Jingpey Lee was about to buckle under the weight of those bags of grocceries... when this kind angmoh decided that those grocceries looked too heavy for me and helped carry all of them to the taxi stand :D Very touched by the kind gesture. Didnt know people like that still exist in this society. I will rmb to pass the kindness on. Merry Christmas everyone (:"

posted this on facebook.
yes, i was pleasantly surprised today.
it was such a sweet gesture that really made my day.

it must be the christmas spirit.
-
went groccery shopping today.
cold storage, then ntuc.
it was war inside.
i had a very hard time maneuvering my shopping cart around.
took two steps, stopped, another two, stopped.
if not because i like groccery shopping so much, i'd be super frustrated.
queued for more than 20mins at both places.
i must have spent at least 3-4hours today staring at my shopping list, greens, poultry and random food.
anw, since when did ntuc become so well stocked and cheap?!
i felt really cheated when i made my way down from coldstorage to ntuc. the difference in prices was... HUGE. but too late. i already bought them.
ok that sounded really aunty.

mum's considering to charge me for storage space in the fridge.
-
im going to continue prepping the ingredients.
and omg, i havent finish the cards! :/
-
merry christmas everyone (:

time to be jolly

2009-12-23T22:52:00.003+08:00

this could just be the shittiest christmas ever.
i dont remember a night since i came back from phuket that wasnt spent tearing away in my room.
it's scary how ive been allowing myself to be so caught up in all that's unpleasant, and wallowing in self-pity.
the truth is,
im just really tired.
this whole emotional rollercoaster ride is taking a toll on both my physical and mental health.

totally stressed out over the christmas gathering too.
it's an annual thing.
i should have gotten used to it right? but no.
things are a tiny bit different this year i suppose. and besides that, i've really been too bogged down by so many things, im way behind my own schedule. you dont want to know how much more i've to complete.
i worry
i ask too much from myself sometimes. and the tiny details are all really impt to me even though no one prolly notices them anyway.
im a perfectionist when it comes to things like that.

i am sorry.
to everyone who has been on the recieving end of my little outbursts every now and then.
yes.
he's right.
i was being overly sensitive.

but everyone who truly knows me will know that the only time i become like this is when smthg/someone is really important to me.

im sorry anyway.

a stressed host is a lousy host.
i'll go calm myself now.

HUMBUG.

2009-12-21T09:57:00.003+08:00

yesterday night was ultra hellish after jo went offline.
it was depressing.
i couldnt take the influx of such raw emotions...
the initial stage of feeling ridiculous and annoyance was overwhelmed by the later stage of guilt, despair and depression.
comforting words didnt help.
went off to bed at 230. but only really fell asleep around 5. cried, calmed, cried, calmed. and i wasnt even crying for myself wtf. i was upset by the fact that everyone else (or the few key person who really matters to me) was upset. it... pains my heart. alot.

meeting jo in another hour now.
we'll be happy.
it's been long since our last girly day out.
we'll dress up, take happy photos (i'll rmb to bring memory card), do girly stuff, enjoy our movie, and our food.
i need to find my festive mood back again.

and when we are back, i'll blog about phuket.
ive already shared the pictures on facebook.
-
other than finding that festive mood.
i also need to find some REAL MEN in my life.
ive had enough of little boys.

age & immaturity is directly proportional

2009-12-20T01:34:00.005+08:00

feeling very ill.
sorethroat + flu (courtesy of jo)
doesnt help that i am so upset now.
feeling very stupid and awful at the same time.

just a short post.
wanted to update facebook status, but it seems like there's a high possibility that it'd be used against me.
(facebook/msn status war is plain stupid anyway ok.)
i should sleep soon.
-
was going to update more about phuket.
but now im moodless.

Binge-Blogging

2009-12-19T21:20:00.004+08:00

"is it worth it? for all the pain and frustrations you are being put through?"
"is it worth it? for the time and effort?"
"is it worth it? when the other party does not even seem to be doing anything about it?"
"is it worth it? for what you are giving up?"
"does he even care?"

my little heart flinches whenever i get asked these questions.
but my response remains the same.
-
im sorry, im binge-blogging.
just that i've been away for days and there were too many of these stray thoughts going around in my head.

Less is More.

2009-12-19T20:55:00.002+08:00

Real gentlemen are those who show real gentleness and graciousness without anyone looking on, instead of being "gentle" and "gracious" only when they get to show others how much of a gentleman they are.
Same goes for a really knowledgeable person who does not feel the need to show the world that they are knowledgeable. Speaking when necessary, and appropriately.
Sometimes,
less is indeed more.
-
Just saying.. (:

jo and jing the woMAN

2009-12-19T15:07:00.005+08:00

im back from sawadeekap land!
(:
sawadee snorkeling sand sun and sea.
pretty good (:
lots of "first"s for me.
and for the very first time, we didnt do any shopping! holidays like this can be real relaxing and nice too.
slightly burnt from the sun. showering was both a pleasure and a pain these few days.
much things to update.
photos are all with evan steve justin and ty. because 1) yours truly very smart, brought cam without memory card. HAHA. 2) 3 out of 4 of them has got huge ass professional looking cameras. mine will look stupid next to theirs. 3) evan was taking nonstop. there was no need for me to take anything. 4) i just wanted to relax, see and feel with my eyes, not through the lens... for once.
there are about 2000 photos in total. so explains point no.3.
-
will explain the title of this blogpost soon :D

UHOH

2009-12-13T00:09:00.002+08:00

i promised to blog about my cousin's wedding and jingting's birthday.
but i have not.

then there's also the ktv session with jo evan jasp and 3 of their nus friends.
and bodyworld+science centre yesterday with jo evan jasp ty steve... + VS parcel ripping with jo.
and lunch today with shannon + my strong arms.

it is ambrose's birthday celebration tmr. so i'll have more pictures.
and that'd be another day/event to blog about.

and ive a feeling i wldnt be able to fulfil all because im leaving for Phuket on Tuesday and i have not packed.

ahh!

一起刘志文

2009-12-11T02:45:00.003+08:00

作词：刘志文作曲：刘志文

喜欢你的气息
喜欢你的语气
喜欢不经意 Send 你爱的讯息

很庆幸我遇见了你
我们应该继续不该停在这里
相爱应该不管天空下着雨
爱它为我们持续

我爱你很想这样直接告诉你
怕只怕我这突然一句会吓坏了你
我爱你希望你也想说这一句
说你也想听听我的呼吸
说你愿意在一起

WTF

2009-12-10T01:27:00.003+08:00

going through one of the most wtf moments in my life right now.
im sorry jasper and shan for disgusting the both of you.
ok, maybe only jasper. shan seems amused and is having fun role-playing.
-
im not going to spell out what happened,
for fear of grossing out all of you.
but trust me,
it made me went wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf.
so did jasp.
-
it's disgust and amusement all rolled up into one.
but now im feeling a little afraid.
-
come on,
less drama please.

i love the bestfriend...

2009-12-09T02:02:00.002+08:00

because...
she understands me the best when no one else does.
im not afraid to tell her abt how i really feel, because i know she wouldnt laugh.
she agrees with me on things tt i dont dare to tell others for fear of being judged.
she is fiercely loyal. and will be pissed off when im hurt.
she feels happy for me over the silliest thing, like when i told her im going to be a sister for my cousin. she was so excited, when some people just went .____."
i feel no need to keep anything. when she asks, i spill. simple.
thankyou sweetie.
-
just a thought.. after ranting to her.
(:

(((:

2009-12-09T00:28:00.001+08:00

breezy night.

long walks.

esplanade.

htht.

maxbrenner.

dark sinful choc.

this. is. life.

er goodluck to my throat tmr too.

blah

2009-12-08T02:38:00.003+08:00

just came back from mahjong at jasper's place.
biggest loser! but it was fun :D
i love their company.
-
but as usual,
came back home and started feeling slightly crappy.
my mind's feeling busy now.
-
the walk back and forth was actually quite nice.
love december, and the breeze that comes along with it.
not so nice when it rains though.

happy upset happy upset happy...err.

2009-12-06T22:28:00.002+08:00

Honestly,
ive been really happy this week.
like really really really sugar sweet happy.
especially this two days.

yesterday was cousin judy's wedding, and it was my very first time being a sister. it was so much fun and i had this crazy urge to cry at many moments.
i'll save the details for later when ive uploaded all the pictures.

today was jingting's very belated birthday celebration.
crazy fun as usual whenever im with the girlfriends.
i think the people there must be really pissed with us for making so much noise and making a mess of their place (we cleaned it up in the end la)
the quiz was damn funny. and so was everything else.
love high and old songs. woots. 2 ktv sessions in 5days, one more this coming wed. gosh.
just reached home and stomach's all bloated up from the korean bbq.
discussed abt our christmas celebration on the way home with jies peezee and jaytee. HILARIOUS. i cant wait already. waiting for jies to post more about the event. and the story we came up with *coughs.
-
despite the fun and laughter and all that joyous occasions,
i cant help feeling blah when i reach home.
and i hate it that im letting myself feel so bugged by certain issues.
-
i know im most prolly being silly,
but i know things are certainly not THAT simple.
-
ok,
think happy thoughts!
(:

5th dec

2009-12-06T00:25:00.002+08:00

had a really lovely day (:
i just got home and is so so so tired.
but it's all worth it.
(:
congratulations once again to cousin judy and josh.
-
alot of pictures and things to blog about.
will do it soon.
been very very busy.
ive been out every single day this week.
roars.
need some sleep. but still happy cos this is how my holiday should be like :D

drool worthy

2009-12-03T23:34:00.001+08:00

santa... please... ?

是我想太多，你总这样说~

2009-12-02T23:26:00.003+08:00

went out with the girls today.
sing sing sing!
omg. been so long since i last went ktv-ing.
feeeeeels good (:
so high. haha. jies and wenzi were plain crazy.
and then we just started singing all the old school songs. REALLY old.
had tons of fun. thankyou girls.
errr not alot of pictures, but ive got video.
not allowed to upload any of them though, because... well.. yes... because.
:D
-
anyway,
fml.
i went shopping before meeting the girls.
had to wake up very early today, and only had 2hours to shop for what i need.
mad rush.
felt so stressed.
but i managed to get what i wanted from topshop.
i think i was too happy with my buy, because i didnt realise that the girl did not return me my debit card.
(at least, i really do hope it is there.)
i only found out when i reached home and wanted to go withdraw money.
bah.
and topshop's already closed for the day, so i couldnt call to check.
))):

will need to rush down again tmr morning before meeting the cousins.
sigh.
-
i really need less dramas in my life.

A Scary Christmas Carol

2009-12-01T23:00:00.002+08:00

good day, after the rather emo night i had yesterday.
went out for 12hours.
with some of my favourite people too ((((((:
happy.
-
caught a Christmas Carol!
argh.
we thought that it's gonna be quite enjoyable and light and funny.
but i was totally agonised through out the whole movie.
someone explain to me why it is soooooo scary?!
felt very disturbed and afraid.
rawrs.
ohwels, i guess it was meaningful. i liked the message behind it.
just hate the fact that it was scary.
not for kids. really. or for lousy people like me.
-
oh.
some lady chased me a small little distance today and tapped me on my back.
hahaha. got a shock.
turns out that she only wanted to ask where i got my bag from
:D
so pretty hor.
thanks jo!
foggiare.sg !! it's up!!
new collection launching tmr!
-
gossiped alot today.
tsktsk :/
-
and ate alot of desserts (:
sucha happy day.
-
looking forward to tmr already!

so i wont...

2009-11-30T22:55:00.000+08:00

Random #301109

2009-11-30T16:18:00.003+08:00

was packing away again today.
such a good girl.
more scrubbing to do tmr because im bringing all my bags out to wash. *gasps.

dad treated us to kfc for lunch.
lol.
it was more of him craving for it.
but it's nice that im having the luxury of sitting down for lunch with my parents on a monday afternoon. (((:

going off to ikea soon!
more items to fill the room with :/

aunty maria.

2009-11-29T19:53:00.003+08:00

HELLO ALL!
dropping by because i need a rest badly.
back aching and i cant stop sneezing.
you see....
after my little nap in the noon, armed with the sucker(vacuum cleaner), wet cloth and a pail of water, i decided to brave the st.., err, dust and clean up my room once and for all.

1) appease the mum cos she bought me my oven.
2) finally cant stand it anymore. (can you believe it, i still have notes from the last semester lying around and not properly stored away)
3) found a friggin spider in my room today, decided that enough is enough and i really dont want anymore bugs accompanying me in bed.
4) it's almost christmas and i want my room to be pretty for christmas.
5) the dust is killing me. really. oh, and my parents too.

anyway,
im only halfway through it and i think im about to drop dead on the floor. but i wouldnt, because i think there are still bugs lying around.

i decided that since im doing such a major clean up, i might as well clear out my wardrobe and cupboards and drawers too. gah. never knew i owned so many things. i always thought i've lost them or gave them away, so i just keep buying new ones, but actually, they are just SOMEWHERE.

cleared out the bags too. why do i have so many bags?! i never knew i had this many bags. some of which i dont even remember anymore. was surprised. i am giving out half of them cos i dont think i'll carry them anymore. more room for new bags!

and notebooks, magazines, books, craft materials, accessories... dont even get me started on them. ive so many of these knick-knacks that i dont even know how i should store them. sigh.
good thing that im actually pretty efficient at packing and clearing stuff (:

alright.
shall get back to cleaning up right now, or i may never finish.

have you clean up your room yet?

ANNE OHHH

2009-11-28T20:00:00.002+08:00

which part of "no" do people not understand?
is it so hard to comprehend?
"no, it's ok"
"you dont have to"
"there's no need"
rahhhhhhhh.
stubborn to the max.

reason for teaching #82183

2009-11-27T22:40:00.003+08:00

my very first batch of p4s in 2007 just graduated.
they rcved their results yesterday.

i smsed a couple of them wishing them goodluck and all.
and since ytd, ive been rcving smses and msn messages that goes along the line of "ms lee! i passed already leh" "li lao shi, i got ____" "i can go sec sch!"

soooooo cute.
ive missed them so much.

but im really happy for them.
doesnt matter if they were the top students, getting agg scores of 250++ or going to NA with 100++. what matters most is that they have done within their own means, and gave their best. i know they have.

my lil ones who drove me mad, who drove me to tears, who made my blood boil... they are all grown up now. *dabs tears*

happy (:

((:

2009-11-27T00:11:00.002+08:00

met up with the excolleagues today!
so fun so fun! :D
seeing them again in another 9 hours.
LOL.
crazy, but yeah, lots to talk about.
will update agn.
love the girls (:

Hua Yu, Cool!

2009-11-25T21:58:00.003+08:00

like what i posted on fb,
im feeling very lost over my sudden freedom.
so many things to do, so much time!
which one do i start off with first?!
but im not complaining (:
-
dont know if you guys have been reading the reports abt the whole chinese and english thingy.
ive so much to say.

im totally for teaching chinese with english in the beginning when the situation calls for it, eg: dont understand a single word of chinese. english will be useful in this case. but because both are very different, it is rather silly to think that chinese can be taught using english thruout.

and what is with "our kids are not interested in chinese"?
bah. not true.

learning chinese through memorizing can be helpful.
as you'd all have prolly known by now, the classes i taught in the previous school were very very weak in chinese.
so memorizing lines was the way to go.
make it fun, and they will do it. (and if they dont, erm, force them, they will thank you for it in the future.)
you've no idea how happy they are when they can manage one or two paragraphs during exams. do it a few more times, and they will begin to see the "pattern" of the language.
see, it makes both of us happy (:

the problem doesnt lie with the system nor the language nor the kids.
it's how you teach. and how they learn.
*scoots off to think of interesting ways*

over

2009-11-25T00:27:00.002+08:00

exam's over.
last paper was really terrible.
i kept wanting to fall asleep.
and the migraine almost killed me.
spent the last 45mins napping in the exam hall.
done all i could, so we shall just wait and see.
-
mum and i went to get a new oven today.
happy (:
thanks mumsie.
doesnt come cheap, but i believe in quality.
will make sure this doesnt go kuku like the old one.
-
不开心的事，
就忘了吧。

2009-11-23T21:59:00.000+08:00

(((:
cute.

1day

2009-11-23T18:56:00.003+08:00

came home because i felt so distracted by everything.
the cold, the people, the loud music, the migraine and my own flickering thoughts.
just puked half of the lunch out.
symptoms of stress.
why ah? i wasnt even feeling anything like this for the past few days/weeks.

feeling very very ill.
physically, mentally.
-
i need...

tootsie roll

2009-11-21T21:44:00.003+08:00

im nvr going to walk into a salon on impulse anymore.
):

i got so bored studying today.
felt very restless and pekchek.
so i trot 2 levels up and walked into monsoon.
looked for jimson...
and came out looking dumb ):
v v sad.

watching the hair fall as the stylist snipped it away was good.
the hairwash was even better.
but closing your eyes and opening it the next moment to find your fringe reduced to THIS state, isnt.

sigh.
gonna take abit getting used to.
pls grow.

(:

2009-11-20T23:40:00.004+08:00

you make me wanna grow old with you...

happiness is waking up from an evening nap

and finding a warm mushroom soup bread bowl that mum left on the dinner table.

Random #201109

2009-11-20T12:37:00.002+08:00

today,
i discovered that someone stumbled upon this blog sometime last week by googling for my name.
im very very disturbed.
-
anyway,
im once again amazed by the stupidity of people.
doesnt matter if you are not educated, a dip holder, an undergrad, a graduate, or .. even a prof.
it has nothing to do with academics.
but pure common sense.
-
these days, the kiddos are speaking like adults.
but unfortunately, the adults are also starting to speak like the kiddos and acting like them too.

快乐

2009-11-20T00:49:00.003+08:00

原来快乐真的可以很简单。

今天回家的途中，突然下起了滂沱大雨。
整身都被淋湿了。
但是见到车子因迅速行驶而导致水花溅起的那一幕，我莫名其妙地快乐起来。

和朋友吃吃饭、逛逛街。
很快乐。

见到漂亮的圣诞装饰。
很快乐。

和懂我心的人聊天。
很快乐。

这种快乐，很简单，很单纯，更难能可贵。

:D

2009-11-19T23:58:00.001+08:00

HOHOHO.

it's ur turn!

finally!

happy birthday babe!

SMOOOOCH.

hope you like this lil surprise... now, go on and click on jies and peezee's blogs too. hehehe.

dinner date with peezee&jies

2009-11-19T23:15:00.003+08:00

dinner at ion.
all of us looked v v chui thanks to exams ):
things havent been going too well for all of us, but im glad we still have each other!
always nice to have girlfriends around (((:
*smooch.

anyway.
we decided to take a stroll along orchard to breathe in the christmasy feel.
and woahhh. pretty leh.
finally had my camera today!
(:

exams,

be over soon!

Jacq21st

2009-11-19T22:36:00.003+08:00

jacqueline's birthday last sat.
jacq's one of those people who really helped me get thru jc.
if not for people like her, i dont think i'd have survived.
so it was a must to go... (:
BUT i just realised ive no photos with the birthday girl in my cam lor! hahahaha.
need to wait for her to send me now cos somebody got no facebook ._.
(who doesnt have facebook in this age and time?!)
some pictures...

2009-11-19T01:30:00.003+08:00

im having a paper in 8hrs time.
and all i can think about is dinner with peezee and jies tmr evening.
._.
ive missed the girls.
and the endless conversations we always seem to have when we are together.

done with first paper (:

2009-11-18T20:42:00.002+08:00

i planned to wake up at 6am today to study.
but errr plan foiled because i switched the alarm off.
woke up late in the end and had to cab to school. rawrs.
wasnt THAT late tt i had to cab.
but it wasnt THAT early either tt i could take the train.
was in a huge dilemma ):
-
went into the exam hall.
and guessed who got the seat beside me!
had this "bu xiang de yu gan" when i saw uncle wu sitting down.
but tt arse wldnt stop laughing.
pffffft.
-
anw
i walked out half way thru out the exam
really no point staying inside anymore.
afterall, it'd just be me staring at the paper, and the paper staring back at me.
saw uncle wu standing up to leave, so i decided to go too.. need some sleep.
:D
-
cant wait for tmr!

2009-11-17T23:42:00.003+08:00

and there you go agn...
reading my mind.

creepy
but thanks
for trying to cheer me up.
doesnt matter if you succeeded in doing so,
it's the thought that counts.

but...
-
edit/
ok then again, maybe not.
hates it when people try to guilt-trip me.
rahh.

ill mugger.

2009-11-17T15:02:00.002+08:00

woke up this morning feeling all motivated to study!
(i mean, paper is tmr, of course i'd feel motivated :D)
so off i went to the same place ytd.

but i think im allergic to studying.
havent stop sneezing and sniffing since 2hours ago.
my eyes are droopy.

alright.
gonna take a 10mins break reading 8 days
and continue to psyche myself up.
go people!
goodluck for tmr (:

PEA

2009-11-16T15:45:00.003+08:00

papermarket-ed with the bestfriend and evan this morning.
omg we were so excited since last night!
went very very kuku and made jasper felt very left out cos we were just going all excited on our own without telling him what was going on.
hahaha.
we were both abusing the exclaimation marks.
lunched at soupspoon! happy lil stomachs (:
went back to her shop again in the noon. (commercial break: foggiare is having a sale this coming saturday! make your way down to Square 2 if you are free! new stocks included! up to 50% sale ok! super worth it!) studied somewhere around the area.

oh and i finally got my slippers back.
with a note attached to the paper bag that says :
"customer will collect tmr - JING PEA"
prolly meant to say that im cute as a pea :D
-
ms ong and i had a rather interesting chat yesterday night, until my lappie battery died.
honestly, i didnt think that much.
but it made sense after i heard her POV.
-
however,
that is not the point.
the point is,
i really dont get what goes on in people's mind sometimes, really.
my teacher in primary school taught me to "not trouble trouble till trouble troubles you"
so why do some people like finding shyt for themselves?
but that's ok. because we all do stupid things at times.
until... they come and whine about the same thing over and over and over again.
Specimen 1, Specimen 2 and Specimen 3.
sigh.

2009-11-16T02:30:00.002+08:00

NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young
And we both know they'll take us
Where we want to go

(Chorus 1)
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

(Chorus 2)
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

(Chorus 3)
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy,
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
-
Fang Da Tong's version on repeat mode.
totally loving it.
(:
-
evan's v simple words "just so you know it's worth it can le"
hit me right in the heart.
is it worth it?
i dont know, really.
but it doesnt matter, not to me.

wa mng tee~ wa mng tee~

2009-11-15T20:34:00.003+08:00

omg.
just heard the cheesiest thing on tv!

Scene: Wife suspects Husband on having an affair. Husband was indeed in the car with another woman. Wife saw. Wife called Husband to "test" him.

Wife: 你现在在哪里？(Where are you now?)
Husband: 我在你心里呀。(I am in your heart.)

gawwwddd.

and yes, im watching tt 7pm weekend taiwanese drama on channel8.
lols. dont judge me!

rushhhhhhh

2009-11-15T00:51:00.002+08:00

such a tiring day.
my knees are killing me, and i can feel my energy being sapped away slowly from my body.
no studying done at all,
but i had fun.
lots of guilt, but no regrets.
-
met jo in the late morning for lunch.
omg THAT chicken rice is the bomb.
so was the tehpeng.
and we've got new havaianas for phuket now!
so happpppy (:

oh and i got my early christmas present from her!
mad loveeee.
totally loving it.
thankyou sweetie.
-
bought alot of christmasy stuff at PS today.
all ready to decorate the house!
(((:
was totally rushing for time, but i had so much fun picking out random stuff.
-
went for jac's 21st.
and just got home.
always nice catching up with one of my favouritest teacher whom im kinda indebted to.

cold nights

2009-11-14T10:17:00.002+08:00

impromptu dinner/supper with jo evan and jasp
that, coupled with the cold night
and snuggling within the sheets.
i could really get used to nights like that.
-
now,
if only things would just go right on its own somehow.
why do i always seem to be getting myself into awkward situations?
-
going off to meet the bestfriend right now.
(:
-
did someone just mentioned exams next wednesday?
oh.

心の语。

YOU.

Just Believe.

demoralising.

being unwell..

just to let you know that i am still alive.

Love

Week 1 Day 2

老实讲

Week One, Day 0

无奈

CNY

Happy Valentines & Gong Xi Fa Cai!

Y for Yuck.

(:

莫。名。

当头棒喝

coincidences.

Teach.

lol.

Random #060210

Sea Monkey

fatigue

:D

Weekend #300110

蒲公英

FYP

Peanut Cookies

meanie

it takes both hands to clap

weekend

Random #180110

week1

530.

Random #110110

blast from the past

):

(:

(:

玩

Teach

it's unhealthy

1st

二零一零

对于2010年。。。

对于2009年。。。

Day 5 - FINALLY

Day 4

Day 3

Day 2

Phuket Day 1

beezee

梦境

圣诞快乐

angel from above

time to be jolly

HUMBUG.

age & immaturity is directly proportional

Binge-Blogging

Less is More.

jo and jing the woMAN

UHOH

一起 刘志文

WTF

i love the bestfriend...

(((:

blah

happy upset happy upset happy...err.

5th dec

drool worthy

是我想太多，你总这样说~

A Scary Christmas Carol

so i wont...

Random #301109

aunty maria.

ANNE OHHH

reason for teaching #82183

((:

Hua Yu, Cool!

over

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